Tuesday, December 20, 2011

Upset

I got a lot of much needed sleep last night and woke up with intentions of writing a very funny story but plans have changed my friends.

I just read Tony's Latest Post and I'm too worried or upset to write about anything so frivolous.  I think many of his readers just see him as an interesting story, and not a person.  I see the person, who I was trying so very hard to steer away from a train wreck, but it didn't work.  In fact, the part that scares me the most is maybe I, with my good intentions, pushed him further off the cliff.  Maybe I put too much pressure on him to avoid the machines - too much pressure about something he is unable to control.  I need to shut the fuck up and stop giving out unsolicited advice, which most likely will not happen.  I cannot express how badly I feel about this.

I was only trying to help because sometimes when you're in the eye of the hurricane you don't have the entire picture, at least not as well as someone on the outside looking in.

Ugh.

I am sad.

Josie

55 comments:

Cranky said...

VJ - it has nothing to do with you. TBC ignores all advice. It is sad, true, but you neither prompted the behavior nor can cure it.

badbilly32 said...

what cranky said! he only listen's to the infamous meth head "britni" listen to me josie people have been telling him the same shit u are for years HE DOESNT/WONT LISTEN! DONT LET HIM GET YOU DOWN XMAS IS IN 5 DAYS!!!!! DONT YOU HAVE A PAIR OF LOUBUTINS OR LOUIS VUTTION PURSE STASHED UNDER THE TREE...thats way better to think about than t.b.c.....xmas presents!!!!!!(whats the giveaway here that my best friend is a high maitenence girl, and i watch too much housewives of beverly hills)

please please please dont let him get you down...and please now deliver the"funny story"

adam ererrr "goodbilly"

Josie said...

I dunno Cranky, i'm really very powerful. lol jk.

I left some not so nice comments on his blog, reactions to other people's comments about me being tony's gf and that upset him.

Josie said...

@billy, Mmmm xmas presents...wait a minute, I'm not getting any louboutins or anything louis vuttion!

JT88Keys said...

Tony's whole blog and previous forum thread on All Vegas Poker just make me sad in general. As many others have already said...you had nothing to do with his problems. They were always there and they will always be there. He's not well and doesn't/can't trust anybody enough to really help him.

I stopped reading his blos for the same reasons I don't watch shows like Celebrity Rehab or Intervention. I don't want to be entertained by the misfortune of others.

Josie said...

@JT - Of course I didn't cause his problems, but I told Lightning to "blow me" on tony's blog because lightning was being lightning and it insulted tony. ugh. i really have to watch what i say, which is quite unlikely. :)

lightning36 said...

What everyone else said. This has been going on for some time. Time to ratchet down your ego a might. Sheesh -- you are getting worse than me!

Josie said...

Lightning, BLOW ME. This is all your fucking fault. Instigating me on tony's blog and making me react.

lightning36 said...

Why must you not only use such crass language but suggest something that is an impossibility ... Unless Jordan was initially right?

Sorry, but Tony's many problems, which have existed for years, are not my fault. Your use of foul language has existed for years and is not my fault.

I did not ever assume I could make you do anything. However, if I am to be controlling your life, there are many changes that I plan to make. Yes, a NEW and IMPROVED Josie is on the way!

VegasDWP said...

Josie,

You have to know that Tony's latest monkey-tilt blow up had nothing to do with you. Unfortunately, this is a cycle with Tony that keeps repeating itself.

Granted, he got upset over what you posted on his blog but that's only because he misunderstood. Now that you've explained, he should be fine.

I think it's great you are trying to help him, because he won't listen to those of us that have been trying to give him advice. For some reason, though, he WILL listen to a woman giving the very same advice.

Don't give up ... you're doing a good thing by trying to help him. I only hope he wises up and takes you up on the offer.

D

Josie said...

@lightning, you can't improve perfection!

@vegasUKguy, thank you.

lightning36 said...

"@lightning, you can't improve perfection!"

Well, I would not go THAT far, but I will admit that you are pretty darn good. : o )

Memphis MOJO said...

You can't save the world, so don't even try.

Josie said...

lol lightning. :)

mojo, just because i can't you think i shouldn' try?

sevencard2003 said...

how does cranky know if i ignore advice, hes never posted on my blog. wow 13 whole comments since 5am. billy is an ass for calling britni a methhead when she hated drugs and those who do them because of her brother. ive never seen JT88keys post on my blog and he certainly havent ever tried to give advice. no idea who memphis MOJO is either, and i would swear lightning has also posted on carmens blog.

lightning36 said...

Yes, Tony, I have posted on Carmen's blog before, including a few weeks ago. I met Carmen several years ago. If fact, I was going to introduce myself to you when I was in Las Vegas the first week of this month, but both times I saw you it was about 4am and I was heading to bed. You were playing late-night games at O'Sheas and Imperial Palace.

josiesboytoy said...

I am jealous. J/K Yep you cant save the world and someone who gambles on video poker etc with what little bankroll he has might have to hit rock bottom before he smartens up. Good on you for trying though which shows you care.

Josie said...

Hi Tony! These are all peeps that regularly read my blog and are all really good people, even Lightning. btw thank you for following me! You, my dear, are my 38th follower! :)

Glenn said...

Hey Josie - I've not commented before, but I've seen your blog through the Grump's posts and have followed the TBC saga for several years. As others have already indicated, TBC has his cycles and he'll go through them regardless of what you do. Tony will typically point to some factor as a cause of a blowup, but that's not really it, Tony does what Tony does and people giving him advice aren't going to change that. If he hadn't gone off on tilt "because of your comments" it would have been something else he would have used to justify the blowup.

Another thing that I can tell you as a long time observer of the TBC saga (it's just hard to turn away yeah) is that just like TBC has his cycles, there's a pretty predictable cycle for people who interact with him via blog, forums etc. I know, I've gone through the cycle myself. You start out with seeing someone who by all appearances wants to deal with some pretty challenging issues, and so you dispense some well meaning advice. That phase usually leads to more and more detailed posting thinking that if you can just explain it clearly enough, Tony will finally get it and his life will improve. Then you finally hit the realization that Tony doesn't follow advice. I don't think it's because he doesn't understand it and I really don't think he's sending a big F you - I don't want to use profanity in your blog ;) - to the people who give him advice. It's just how he's wired.

So, I appreciate that you have sadness over Tony's situation and feeling like you played a part in this most recent blow up. I really wouldn't let it get you down though. One thing you have to realize in the TBC advice giving cycle is that you don't really have the ability to help him make those changes, but by the same token, you don't have the ability to make things worse. TBC is as TBC is.

Josie said...

Thank you Glenn. Your comment is eye opening. I supposed I panicked when I saw the title of his post about his "last blog" and "disappearing", and thought the worst, even worst still that i may have played a part in it. What you say seems totally right on though.

BTW I'm still mad at Grump, although what he did does seems less important now. :)

Thank you for commenting. I hope you will again.

lightning36 said...

"BTW I'm still mad at Grump"

Yeah -- and he didn't even say "Blow me" in blog comments. Who would say such a thing? : o P

Josie said...

LOL Lightning, you know I'm crazy bout you. (but don't think i missed that "jordan zinger". I did not)

fwiw I would have preferred that he said "Blow me" instead of what he ended up saying. Men. Hmfph!

sevencard2003 said...

ive not heard from grump in a long time what are u mad at him for? is Glenn missing flops?

Glenn said...

Josie - as for the references to disappearing, one of Tony's traits is a belief when things go really bad that a change in location will magically change things, so I'll suspect that's what the "disappearing" referenced. There was a time maybe about a year or so ago where he had made similar comments on Twitter and enough people on the forums where his blog was at that time were worried that they had security at the hotel he was staying in at the time do a welfare check to make sure he hadn't hurt himself. He hadn't and didn't have any intention to do so. Just part of his outbursts.

Incidentally, I first ran into Tony through the allvegaspoker.com site. I'm one of the forum mods there and judging from reading your blogs, I think you would have a ball in there. You should join up and start posting.

Glenn said...

Yes Tony, Glenn is missingflops.

Josie said...

@glenn, allvegaspoker? hmmm? I don't understand what that is exactly but perhaps I'll check it out.

@tony, grump writes about me a lot and the last time he just seemed to ridiculed me so much, yet he's supposed to be my friend. i don't treat friends that way so it pissed me off. grump's been on vacation for a week...i dunno if that's why you haven't heard from him.

Josie said...

@glenn, i haven't read tony for very long and don't tweet so I freaked out about the disappearing thing.

@tony, have you slept???

sevencard2003 said...

no but ive been trying to sleep since i got checked into rio 2 hrs ago. i slept only 2 hours middle of the nite, and im sure not leaving to play cards til late late tonite after some rest first.

and i will disappear out east, its a question of when. i dont have the money to but from people ive spoken to on my blog, seems florida is the best for me some places are no machines, only poker, and many good cheap games and good action.

at least florida is warmer outside than CT and DE if i get too low.

Josie said...

tony, fla does seem like a better decision than the colder states. glad to hear you aren't going to play tonight until you've had some sleep. if you do go to fla, let me know as i do know one guy in the ft lauderdale area and he's a poker player and a good guy. it couldn't hurt.

and remember, when you go down to play after you've slept, you're there to play POKER, not anything else....and you don't have to play for 12 hours - once you're up a couple hundred, go back to the room and read waffles blog. it's on my blog roll. His blog is called Ramblings of a Mad Man, and the post today is called Welcome Tony, where he links up to some of his bad times. we've all had bad times, but things'll get better.

badbilly32 said...

a.v.p. is all vegas poker, its where i found tony while looking for the vegas mtt schedule..i still lurk there occasionally pretty decent forum glenn/missing flops is a pretty good guy! hes been giving tony advice like the rest of us for a long time. this is where the "going to vegas for three months underolled w/3k" morphed into the tbc blog. im pretty sure the thread is in the h.o.f. there. its endlessly long(makes the godfather look like a short story)i love puzo,but thats irrelevant :)

badbilly32 said...

you are an enternal optimist aren't you...good for you! keep up the good fight....vini vidi vici!

Josie said...

I'm a mario puzo fan too, and not just because some of my uncles, aunts and cousins are puzos. my fave book of his is The Sicilian.

Wolfshead said...

Sheesh, too bad soap operas are a dying media form got a good one going here. Leave it to VJ. BTW Light, I don't ever want to hear
anything about me being a VJ butt boy after that big fat smooch you placed upon her much talked about ass. Need a napkin to wipe those brown spots off your nose? Getting worse than Mojo.

And VJ before you say a word, bite me. You want salt tollhouse you better plan a trip to AC or Chester after the holidays. They may last a week or so after
New Year mainly because I made so damned many frikkin cookies.

badbilly32 said...

ahhh a sucker for turi, best part is when his godfather poisons his turncoat bestfriend at the end damn whats the exact quote all die who something something gulliano... im a "fools die guy"cully cross and merlin the magician..............i love all his books

badbilly32 said...

ahhh a sucker for turi, best part is when his godfather poisons his turncoat bestfriend at the end damn whats the exact quote all die who something something gulliano... im a "fools die guy"cully cross and merlin the magician..............i love all his books

badbilly32 said...

"all die who betray gulliano" haha i know thats it!!!! damn i was rackin my brain to try and remember

Josie said...

Ooo Wolfie really? If I come to AC I get cookies?!? Don't let the fam eat them!!! Give them the gross oatmeal raisin and save the salt tollhouse for me!

lol billy, you know your mario puzo!

grrouchie said...

Tony is Tony and there really isn't anything anyone can do about it sadly.

Over the summer I have spent a good deal of time with him playing poker and talking to him and he never seems to have any self control.

Once he blow's up all bets are off until he can find a way to get himself under control.

I feel bad for the guy and I'll keep trying to give him advice or play poker with him just so he can have someone to vent with in real life, and I wish I could do more but I can't.

Josie said...

grrouchie you're a good guy. talking to him in person is prolly the best thing you can do. Oh and you are #39! Thank you! I promise to post actual poker content very soon!!!!

JT88Keys said...

Number 40, baby. I like being the round number for some reason.

Mr Mojo Risin said...

Way too much drama lol. I've never heard of this Tony guy before after taking a look at his blog he seems to bring it on himself.

Zin said...

Sup Veryjosie, do not feel bad about Tony's bad habits.

PokahDave said...

Blow!!! I'm reading this because I'm on vacation and there is NO work to be had this week...no pokeraoke either.... :{ I see that Lightning is back to kissin' ass again....wow....it's worse than ever!!!!

Josie said...

Mr. Mojo Risin', you're in vegas, right? Go visit him!

Sup Zin! Welcome to a COOL poker blog - poker content to come!

Pokah Dave - Lightning's nice like once per year - lemme enjoy it!

sevencard2003 said...

Playing rio now. Ii cant afford $1_3 so I only bought 460

Josie said...

gl tony! glad you got some sleep and a seat at rio.

Mr Mojo Risin said...

Josie, you are confusing me with someone who cares. LOL but I'm not gonna go visit some degen. If he wants to hang at XS or Tryst then I'll get him through the door but that's about it.

sevencard2003 said...

typing from cell is very difficult for me compared to a normal keyboard on my laptop. was supposed to say i bought in for $60 not 460

Josie said...

tony, $60 huh? ugh - make it grow!

mojo risin - lol you're a funny bastard, and thank you for the offer of xs or tryst. very nice during the holiday season. :)

Mr Mojo Risin said...

Not that nice Josie, I didn't say he could drink on my bottles. I'll just get him in the door!

Josie said...

cheap bastard! lol

Mr Mojo Risin said...

Cheap bastard??? He is a degen dude. Why would I ever let him on my bottles. Now if he was a cracked out degen hottie it would be different. But that's life in sin city!

HighOnPoker said...

I don't get Lightning's Jordan reference. Care to explain, Lightning or VJ?

Josie said...

Jordan, I told lightning to "blow me" and he said maybe jordan's initial assessment was right. Rememeber when i started blogging and you were trash talking me, saying that I was a dude pretending to be a girl? Remember? Pissed me off royally! I forget why you thought that exactly, other than becuase you obv never met me. Im all girl.

Josie said...

so lightning was like if you're saying "blow me" maybe jordan was right about you having a thing that is "blowable" lol. Capisce?